I will always love you!!!
I fought for you son fought tooth and nail
Knowing one day I would probably fail
Knowing that one day his time would come
And the man you love would one day return
Through all the years that he was away
It was me who cared for you day after day
It was me who cried and shouted and screamed
And now it’s me you dislike it seems
He wasn’t there he didn’t care!
I did what I had to do
But you should know in those early years
What I did I did for you!
I made many mistakes most mothers do
But what I did my son I did for you
I love you my boy more than words can say
Now he’s back in your life I feel tossed away
You’ve tossed me away like a discarded shoe
No use to you now I’m warn through and through
Warn down to my soul warn in warn out
And now I’m all warn it’s you I’m without
You don’t look at the love I still hold in my heart
You don’t see the hurt now we’re so far apart
I know your connection is no longer with me
It’s now him you adore he’s is all that you see
He’s good he’s your idol the one who does right
He doesn’t lose his cool in the dead of the night
He doesn’t drink too much he is confident and strong
But let’s face it son he’s not been around that long
Where was he when you needed a dad?
Where was he when only your mother you had?
Did you think I didn’t feel your love for that man?
I watched how you hurt I felt every pang
I’ve stood beside you for so many years
I shouted I screamed and I cried many tears
Tears not for me for the hurt you went through
Longing for your father though he didn’t need you
Please don’t judge me my son you’ve not lived my life
As your mother I’ve strived to do what is right
There are no books to read which say what to do
I worked from my heart my best interest was you!
04/2015
Carole Snowden